river

every now and then i stumble across fragments of old dusty memories, this video happens to refresh some of these. probably two, three years ago, when the world seemed to be full of possibilities as far as the eye could see.

the sky genuinely was the limit.

near my little suburban home, you could sit next to the river, see it curl through the hills from between the trees. i quite easily spent afternoons skimming stones from the sunbaked earth waiting for the future to bring me whatever it held. the river was always my spot, my place. to think.

now i'm not so sure. i don't know if i'll ever get where i want to be, everything seems to shift and shape around me and nothing seems solid anymore. but i know i'll never truly leave my home. when things go wrong, i'll always come back to my spot, perched upon the solitary rock as the river unwinds and the sun settles into its nest in the hills.

(if you want to, you can watch the video that unearthed

these thoughts, the lyrics always seemed so appropriate)

(she's such an incredible woman)

rapture day

my initial reaction when i heard that today would be rapture day was

"i will be with him, nothing can go wrong, and if it does, there is nowhere else i would rather be."

and i could then die happy.

time

i've just uncovered something incredibly unsettling. it's giving me those old familiar shakes.
makes me wonder why i was never there.


time does very funny things to people.

update

now?
the dying, precious few moments of a once new day.
europe is alive and glowing from space, her cities like fireflies.

me?
i'm struggling at the minute, i have a awful unsettled feeling in the pit of my stomach. i need to create, but my imagination has taken a spontaneous break. but alas i will truck on as always.

i found a lovely video today. i think when i have a week off, this is what i'm going to make. it's very hypnotic, and you can watch the video here.

sleep well.

rains

im not very much used to blogging again. it's funny how a break of a few months can really toy with your system.
standing in the rain, feeling peace fall from the sky.

silence

i don't often ramble, but i find it so strange. silence.
it doesn't really exist does it? through the faint roar of car engines and drunken murmurs, there is never truly silence. think of all the atoms, molecules, continually bombarding your eardrums. so small, we dont even know they're there.


suppose you think about it, everything in the world is vibrating, all the time.
and if vibration creates sound, i wonder what particles would hum, when they think that we can't hear.

the songs magnesium could sing, the chants iron would utter. reactions would be like orchestral fireworks, magic.

but for now, i will return to my suburban "silence" and pray that the earth could sing me to sleep.

counting out

one,

two,

free.

change

i'm awfully sorry for always changing things around here,
i'm just beginning to settle down.
(only a little name change and a change of scenery,
one must constantly refresh to stay alive) 

you don't have to feel safe

to be unafraid.

hiccup

oh dear.

i will learn to walk again.

stability is the key.

soon

i'm sorry everybody. 250 posts erased.

sometimes, things are more important.

i will return.

i promise.

head vs. heart

no more.

know more.